♥ Myself: DeckySha ::

::Saturday, November 21, 2009

its just complicated...

...14th nov...
met dear hafizh for a heart-to-heart session..

dear hafizh is still down wif trauma over the sudden death of her mum..till now i can see dat deep down inside he's still thinking deep over wad happen...sometimes during that silent moment wif him,i can feel a drop of tear fell on my arms...and only turn to realise dat he's crying flashing back the moments wif beloved mom...im happy to see dat he's trying to quit alot of things..drinking habits,tatooin,piercing...eversince she left...all i could do is to try n be there for him in tyms wen he's in need...

by looking at his face in this pic,it explains alot..it saddens me more somehow..

...15th nov...
hazrah's wedding..

early morn i had to go out wif busyuks,as promised..to help him out revamping the kendarat gerls hair in order to improve on image...n yess,im glad dat busyuks is satisfied wif the outcome of the "makeover"..and dat he asked me to stayed awhile,it caused delay as i had to go for hazrah's weddin,as promised by frens..thank gudness he's willing to send me there...phew!

CONGRATULATIONS HAZRAH..!
Kpak kbing kbing!!

...18th nov...
performing arts showcase @ ite macpherson

been having hectic trainin since monday..(till now im having damn backache NO KIDDING!!)..just to prepare ourselves for wed's show...like the organisor said,there are gonna be about 500 audiences...500 la sgt...~!! byk dak skola dorg jek...there's even empty seats lorrr..pfft! harapan palsu betoll! but aniwaes we do enjoy ourselves...lagi kene first item..gempak la woii!...i loikee!! well pics explain.........

i like this rock-chic feeling!

ekin vogue!

nakip..the guy hu made me look gorgeous! thanksh ehkk!

makeup artist and hairstylist

random..but i like!!

thanksh to ekin's cousin who was willing to send us to ite macpherson by lorry..KECOHHH PERRR!!!

decky.nakip

TRA'IRAT...CREWS?? d=D

me wif dearest badar..thanksh for givin me dis opportunity to dance back again nyah!

after the show,the rest went to enjoy themselves for a karaoke session,while i headed off to town to mit up lovelies from kendarat..it was rainy day so had to wait for faz and busyuk to arrive...while waitin,i dilly-dally took my time by goin to paragon's toilet,and took about half an hour to fix and straighten up back my hair and also wipe off my makeup...grr! satu peh keje nak kene wat..

fazlie and yati..

i took this snapshot wif busyuks by surprise..muaahahaha!..
abeh memba taknak amek gmbr sesama..biar aku jek yg amek..hahaha!

...20th nov...
layar andayu's production was kekek!! i loike!

i was invited for productions from 2diff skul's wic was clashed on the same date..by nanyang poly and temasek poly..i was rather confused on wic one to go...so i tot of not goin for both instead...

den wen i was at werk,as usual busyuk msg about my whereabouts..he was suggesting on miting up...but before dat,his msg was like kinda random..i laughed and smiled looking at that msg..

busyuk: u ape plan nari??
decky: lau takder pape alek lor...confirm abes kul 6.3o gitu..kenaper?
busyuk: mish me takk?..hmmm..

decky: hahah! okeh dats random...yeah definitely mish u dear..
busyuk: nak mit up nari?
decky: u tol takder pape plan nari?..nak gi maner?..dinner?

the next thing i noe,he kol me up directly after that...

busyuk: okeh ermm..u meet me up at yio chu kang..nyp at 7.3o..
decky: (silence).........u mean ure goin for the production..??
busyuk: yeap..i got the tickets for u...

i laugh my heart out duno how excited was i!..i was too overwhelmed bt it..haha! we seated down together somewhere in the front row to get a clear view...i was so the cair wen we're like damn close wif each other like couples..haha! but well,kiter sekadar "teman-tapi-mesra" ajerr...and at one moment,i was touched when he said...

busyuk: actually my intention is to make you happy..coz i noe u like this kinda arts2 performance thingy...since ive been very bz,n i admit dat,so tot dat by goin this wif me will make you smile...

awww..cair gegerl cair...thanksh alot busyuk!!! much appreciated!! i enjoyed myself thruout the show wif you dear.. d=)))
<333>

~adecky~

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::Sunday, November 8, 2009

things are getting more haywired..

pfft!

1st nov
RP's production..
"KENTAL AR LU MAT"

woke up as early as 9..becoz dat was wad liyana RP instructed me thru msg...dapat tau memba lum klua uma pon...ku sengaja dilly dally pon psl skola pon just beside my blok sia..tapi takpe..ku sempat sarapan and at least get a glimpse of wads the whole play is all about..

pure funny...! too bad ku tak sempat amek gmbr2 while helpin out makeup dak2..was too bz lahz..mostly helped out those calefares which included dak2 endang and dharma..and also main cast like ita,jaja,athira the emcee,and others more..it was indeed a great experience to have them cuming up to me mintak tlg anuhkan rambot..like woah! gerek sehh..feel so honoured...ehehehe...

n yeah..i get to seat wif dak2 gtr9 sehh..kewl! i went wif anwar and busyuk...den haikel happen to seat at the row infront of us..wif aimi and faiz...i soo miss them...n we were like watching our fellow gtr9 mates performin and directing...

TO RP MCGs...
THE SHOW WAS MELETOP LA OKEHS! the hardwork was indeed worthwhile..
n congrats to
PIKA&JUJUL (artistic directors),SHAFIQ(director) and EKIN(assistant director)..
for putting up a gud show...!

labels:........
im missing alot of things..
miss crapping jokes wif mummy..
miss hafizh..
miss dancing..

miss besties..

miss lepaking sessions..

nie ku aru alek dr kendarat...yess kendarat..after months ku tak keje kendarat..actually yati and faz wanted me to take over liza...(only we noe why..ryt fazzy?) haha! so decided to werk...end up sama jgk,busyuk wanted her to be there still...maybe untuk sementara nie je la ku keje kendarat...i knew cuming down was a bad idea...da busyuk bobal yg macam2..benci ar...mepek sehh..! pfft! satu ari ku tak contact..hmph! let him be lahz...

lately,im also missing hafizh...my feelings for him are beginning to bloom again...but lets not start this now...i guess its not a perfect time to talk about love wif him...

been too stress over mum dat ive been starting to smoke back again..
-________-"

~adecky~

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::Saturday, October 31, 2009

...31 oct...
tragedi oktober..
posting on behalf of dearest hafizh..
(as i try imaginin to be in his shoes)

on the 14th,a fren passed on peacefully suddenly...and yet not even reached the end of october,another lost soul passed on peacefully yesterday morn...

as usual,sis will always wake me up at 6.30 before proceeding out to werk...den before getting ready,i started checking on my phone for updated msgs...there were two msgs from two diff person...one was from a best fren,another was from dear ex hafizh...n then came the shocking news...dear ex hafizh just lost his precious person he adored so much..his mum...at that moment aku tros terbangon and msg bestie (his cuzzie) to get ready soon,coz i definitely wanna come down to visit and pay her my last respect...it really shocked me the moment hafizh told me dat...

questions start asking...coz his parents were divorced wen they were still young...so all this while the one hu has been bringing them up was his mum...now that his mum is gone,fizh feels dat everything seems so sudden...he can only depend on his bro ikhwan...hu is just one year younger den him...when i came to visit,both were somehow distraught...i really pity them both,and started worrying bt how they gonna manage their life especially when theyre not really financially stable...fizh as the the eldest son feels lost...maseh ku teringat suara mak dier dulu terngiang2 pat telefone,blaming me for changing him from bad to worst...but now as we grow up,things tend to get wiser...he's more close to her eversince she started getting sick...dat early morn,he msg me...

"plz maafkan my mak nyer kesalahan terhadap you...my mak da lama nak mintak maaf ngan u cuma takder peluang jek..maafkan my mak,aishah..."

eventhough it took hrs to actually mandikan jenazah,i told fizh dat i'm willing to wait for that ritual to finish...sebab slama nie,sepanjang hayat ku terasa takot nak jumper arwahnye...ni dier da pegi,i decided to giv her my last respect by kissing the forehead before being buried...it was unbearable to look at the brothers...especially when a certain scene happened whereby a relative fainted...memang incident tu payah nak diluper kan...like hafizh said,nothing can repay her sacrifices when he was young,as a single mother...

the next morn,when i was getting ready to go for werk,my bro alarmed me dat there's a bird in the house...i tot it was at the window...den he said no,dier hinggap pat tmpt gantong langsir...when i look closer,its a beautiful sparrow,wif its split tail,white chest and small beak...it was rather weird...maybe pasal hujan pagy2...so somehow burung nie nak tmpt menumpang for shelter..

then i decided to share wif hafizh...i told him dat this bird visit my home...
"maybe your mum sent me this bird as a sign to say thank you to me...your mum is now free like bird dear...she must be happy up there..be happy bt dat..."

in the afternoon,i had no plans after werk..den fizh decided to meet me up..i think to me its a gud thing dat he's willing to meet me...sape lagi dier nak mengadu masalah dier...and yes...sebak hati aku dgr crita dier,n menanges lagi...somehow i felt guilty letting him remember back the incident..but somehow its relieving...aper kesedihan dier alami,its best to let everything out...jadi at least dier tak kekok nak bercerita...for a person like him,im willing to sacrifice my time to be there for him,and be his listening ear...he did mention dat relatives has been askin him whether his dad noes bt it,but he cant be bothered and doesnt even care aniway...he oso did say..

"asal la bkn bapak yang mati dulu...asal la mak i kene gie??.."

all i told him..."Tuhan lebih sayang kan mak you dear..." den he kept quiet and cried...

n what touches me most,when he told me...

"i shall regard you as a part of my family dear.."
='(

Allahyarhamha Enon bte Awi..
semoga rohmu dicucuri rahmat dan semoga kamu ditempatkan diantara golongan orang2 yang beriman...aper2 kesalahan yang aishah perna lakukan terhadap Allahyarhamha,ingin aishah minta maaf...dan sekiranyer slama sepanjang hayat Allahyarhamha ingin ketemu slama ini utk meminta maaf ngan aishah,dgn ikhlas hatinyer,aishah telah lama minta maaf...semoga Tuhan dampingi anak2 mu Hafizh dan Ikhwan ke pangkal jalan yang lurus...amin ya rabbal alamin....
='(

~adecky~

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::Sunday, October 25, 2009

...24 oct...
chill out session..
much misses single life routine!

duno why today's sat at werk seems hectic..wad commosion cuming up oso i duno...i was assigned to do at kiosk coz dear fren was sick..so had to cover her there...much hated dat place..all those hu made appt kept cuming to me complainin...same goes for walkin..haiyo!..irritating..klw sumer attend to me,aku ley watpe seyy..its like sat per..wad do u expect...

MY ENCOUNTER AT WORK...A "SHOULD READ" POST!

n yeah..aku dendam ngan satu abang nie...aku cover info after 123o jap,dier dtg pat aku complain2..lucky abg security tu keep a watch..takot2 dier marah2 aku dier tunjok kan prasaan ker...aku just keep myself calm and still having dat smile goin on..coz STILL,i cant do anithing..he even shouted at me,"BILANG BOSS AWAK JGN WAT NI APPOINTMENT LAH..MENYUSAHKAN HIDOP ORG JEK.." dlm hati aku,tak guna kau bising2..i keep in mind his queue number..i was expecting he oredi went off despite the long wait..i assume..

den came in back to help out wif runner...skali ku take note number queue abg tu..it was an odd number..i decided to become runner for even numbers,and let kumar do the odds..as his number getting nearer,i kept a look at wic counter dat number was called..skali happen dat counter stakat dpn mata aku jek..mula la aku cari abg tu..harap2 dier da alek..i'm surprised..DIER MUNCOL LA WAI...bising2 pon tgu jgk nombor dier...babi nyer org! buang masa aku jek dgr dier celoteh...i realised he looked at me..i gave him dat disgusting look..i even being purposely sarcastic to kumar,making a conversation infront of him.."some ppl ar kumar,dey keep complainin and complainin no point wad...they still have to wait per,ryt?...like hell,waddo you expect on a sat sia?!" and kumar even replied "YEAH...u got a point there"...and dat abg was one gud example to show..

after he collected,i asked the counter staff whether he complained aniting..she said nuthing but showed a "blackface"...aka frustrated...den he came back again to the same counter,tot he was goin to complain again..den i asked her,what he wants again...ruper nyer dier hilang wallet dier...and she asked if anione had return his wallet...HAHAHAHAHA! padan muka..KAN DA KENE DOLAT! tula..org bobal baek2,kau bobal kurang ajar kan...sialan!

NOW...MY CHILL OUT SESSION!

i ended my werk wif the boys in the tracer room at abt 3.20pm..yeash..3.20 to end werk on a sat...how sickening can dat be ryt...tapi takpe la..since ku takder plan,someone asked me if i wanna tag along...so okehla..lately i've been slacking and chilling out wif wan after werk...so after werk,dier ajak whether nak ikot dier gi vivo tgk xbox nyer exhibition...ader games were cool...but mostly nuthing much..so we walked ard vivo windowshopping...den went ben&jerry's outlet to have dessert...since it was my first time eating at ben&jerry's outlet,i somehow fancied looking at all the ice creams they had..and this dessert caught our eyes and we decided to share it to giv it a try...it was the Chewy Brownie Special...yummms! it looks so tempting in the pic...

just look at it...tempting kan?...had two scoops..so one i decided to have my fav,choc mint..and the other was wan's choice,choc fudge...and M&M as its topping...slurps!

den we chill outside at rooftop chitchatting to past the tym by,and observe the beautiful nature of sunset..how nice!

after dat sent me back home..jln masok town area..but the town area mcm aku tak perna nmpk...more of a jakun place to me...hahah! den reached bro's place at about 9+...it was really an awesome day...

n lastly...a pic of nieces wif bro...hee!

~adecky~

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::Tuesday, October 20, 2009

...18th oct...
helping out bestie for performance...

nuthing much to do at home seriously...was darn bored on a sun to be sitting at home doin nuthing...since bestie asked me for my help to dandan kan dak2 danzies for their hari raya gathering...so i came down abit late in the afternoon...dey had some last min rehearsal thingy wen i came n dey have not done any make up yet...all i did was on the hair...so satu2 nyer rambot ku keje kan khekhe!!...kelam kabot nyer pasal wai...

well pics explain...after the performance i went off home...without noticing i doze off like a pig in the bus...tup2 bangon da pai wdlds interchange da...

me. yayah.

performance on stage

alias kadir as the host...

danzies

danzies juniors

yayah.fee

opening item...meletop nyah!

GOH...tinggi kaper...

inviting GOH

upon arrival

getting ready...

maisarah.yayah.fee

and lately....my werkplace has been having rumours eversince ku da banyak kali tompang motor dier...grrr! da dorg pikir ke laen..haiyoo! tapi ntah la ehk...sekadar kawan je laaaaa...rapat sgt ker kiter nie?? sampai makcik2 pat keje mula assume2 psl kiter ehem2 la konon...isy2... *geleng2* harap2 kak yam tak gi tanyer pape pat si die la yerrr...takot nanti dier get offended plak tak tentu pasal....da nanti dier ingat aku lak suka dier...aiyooo!!...pfft!

~adecky~

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::Saturday, October 17, 2009

...16th oct...
the day i turned legal...hahaha!
MY BURSTDAY!

though someone made a false promises for the past one month to celebrate wif me,it was all just bullshit fanciful story...now he's already attached,may karma happened in return hopefully...guys like that should deserve something dat really make them learn their lesson..seriously..hahaha! aniwaes...toking bout guys...

i had a splendid memorable day today...firstly as usual,i receive lots and lots of burfday wishes from lovely colleagues,frens and family...im so thankful that they still rememba my special day..other den dat,i woke up late early morning...n somehow mintak tolong wan mintak tompang gi keje sesamer..khekhe! naseb...

since eve of deepavali falls on my birthday,it was so hectic n crowded...tak perna2 cecah 4oo waiting wai..kecoh per...me n joanne become runner ley pancit sehh...just imagine from counter 18 to counter 49...ulang alek kasi passport...so shagg i tell you! amidst the bz moment,i receive at least two prank kols today...firstlyy was in the early morn...got an unknown no kol,suddenly macam org wat2 suara pompan...wishing me happy birthday...tanyer punyer tanyer dapat tau it was from dear ex hafizh..aww i'm so touched...

the second prank i had was after lunch...i receive a private number...ader teragak2 jgk nak pick up...skali angkat suara pompan koling me "hello pebbles?" ku blank coz the only person dat kols me pebbles is bambammz...tapi ku heran kenaper suara pompan...skali tanyer punyer tanyer dpt tau....."ERMM..NI SAYA FIZA-O DARI STATION RIA..HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY PEBBLES!!..."

I was soooo stunned la kz...thanksh to bambammz for requesting fiza-o to make dat prank kol surprise burfday for me..hahaha! my oh my...

other den dat,i oso had a splendid time spent wif happy pills colleagues hu made a last min bowling plans for my burfdae..since takder pape nak wat..taknak alek siang...so off we went bowling!!!....

faisal's shot

iwan's shot

amy's shot

my shot

amy & faisal

okeh..time to promote bola bowling..hahahaha!

diff camera angle i guess...

berbincang...???

wan & decky

peh-shal...

su-kemek...

stevie wonder??

BOOOH!!

and lastly...the day before my bday...nieces came over to my place...after goin swimming wif their daddy,atok and nenek...caught this photo of dem watching tv..

aww..cute arent they these siblings...? haha!

thanksh to all the warm wishes peeps...love you peeps...!! i shall not forget..!

~adecky~

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::Thursday, October 15, 2009

...in loving memories...
Allahyarhamha Shaffadina binte Jamil
...15 oct...

masih terngiang2 lagi ketawa nya di ingatan waktu skola2 dulu...her laughter will be the most nyaring one...walau kiter dulu perna kacau2 each other,itu suma hanya gurauan belaka...sekira nya tersilap kata atau terguris hati di antara kiter2,aku harap Allahyarhamha dapat maafkan kiter...semasa sepanjang hayat nye jikalau Allahyarhamha perna byk silap dgn kengkawan,kiter suma dgn ikhlas maafkan nya...

semoga Allahyarhamha ditempatkan di golongan2 yang beriman...semoga rohmu dicucuri rahmat....

oh God...please protect his son and show some guidance as he grows up...

shikin and Allahyarhamha Shaffa (oshin) wif son

suhaidah's engagement..march 21st..
the last miting before she passed on peacefully...
amin ya rabbal alamin...

(maseh ku terngiang2 suara anak nya teriak2 memanggil "Mama" sewaktu ku ziarah jenazahnya dirumah...tears just cant stop flowing hearing his voice...he's still too young to know whats happening...)

='(

~adecky~

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